September 10

Surrendering to a New Way of Life

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"Admitting our powerlessness is a surrender, an admission that we don't know the solution to our problems."

IP #17, For Those in Treatment, "Recovery in Narcotics Anonymous"

Admitting powerlessness over our addiction is often the first time we surrender to anything. Never mind the fact that we used to surrender to the drugs every day! Many of us had tried to clean up on our own, without success. We couldn't control our using, so what makes us think we can control our recovery?

We experience one of the greatest paradoxes in NA when we let go of our attempts to control the recovery process and find peace and freedom as a result. One member shared, "Surrender is like learning how to float in water, instead of thrashing about. It's a process of letting go."

We can surrender quietly to this new way of life and allow the experience of other addicts to guide our next steps. There is a sense of relief that accompanies surrender, a peace in powerlessness. Giving up our illusions of self-control frees us to become better versions of ourselves.

And, in NA, we don't have to walk this journey alone. We ask for help when we need it. Sometimes that's the hardest thing we do, but it gets easier with practice. We learn to surrender our old ideas, listen to suggestions, consult a Higher Power, and make up our minds about what course of action we need to take. We do the footwork, let go of the outcome, and move on--confident that surrender will help us accept whatever unfolds.

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I will practice admitting my powerlessness in any situation and free myself to see new solutions. I will surrender the things I can't control.